I can’t seem to shake this feeling of restlessness, of wondering what I want to be when I grow up. Life is funny don’t you think? Just when you think you should have your stuff together, you realize you don’t and go chasing rainbows. Well at least I do!

I have recently returned from a wonderful six (6) days in the northern parts of Australia. I was in Darwin for nearly three (3) days and then sat on Cable Beach in Broome for the next three (3) days naval gazing, sipping the odd cocktail and watching the magnificent sunsets – sigh, what a life!

I made the decision easily to run away but then couldn’t decide where to go. I thought about China as I do have a longing to go there (that is a whole other story) but that didn’t feel right and then the thought came to me, Darwin. Yes, Darwin! One of my clients mentioned a project that the company is involved with in Darwin and suggested they (the project team) might need me in some capacity. So when I thought about running away I thought well perhaps a visit to Darwin to meet the folk on the project would be good as it might turn into a piece of work, something worthwhile. And then to make it feel like I was really running away I booked a couple of nights at Cable Beach Club Resort.

I have blogged about Eckhart Tolle (Power of Now) before but you know it is so true; you can’t force the pace of life, which is why it is so important to appreciate the here and now.

My here and now is really weird, even weird for me, but I get I am in the place and pace I need to be right now. The universe is a wonderful teacher if we simply take the time to listen and observe what is going on around us. Most of us however, get so caught up in just living or surviving that we don’t really see or hear much else.

So this is where I am at. I started writing this blog on the verandah of my room, sweat pouring off me as it was really hot – around 38 degrees and very muggy!

When I first arrived at the Resort I have to admit, I thought what am I doing here? I have done this before, taken myself off somewhere secluded only to be reminded that I am an extrovert and get totally bored with myself within 5 minutes! This time however, (I must be growing up) I persisted and to my absolute delight I really enjoyed the quiet time, actually enjoyed my own company. Let me also put this into perspective. Whilst I may have been there on my own physically, I had been texting the whole time (the joy of mobile phones) so really, I had been there with at least half a dozen of my closest friends! You have no idea the comfort that new text message beep on the mobile phone brings to an extrovert on a solo trip!

So anyway Darwin was fantastic, the project team a great bunch of people and I had the added bonus of meeting a very nice travelling executive that likes to party and explore neural linguistic programming (NLP) as a sales tool, which of course for me being into Lifelong Learning made chatting with him very interesting. Again, that is a whole other story (so many stories to share) but meanwhile click here to learn more about NLP.

Back to Broome, the Resort has a Day Spa so I availed myself of daily moments of bliss with relaxation massages and am pleased to report that I have gained some clarity around my current situation.

So, clarity: I am where I need to be right now. The pace my life is unfolding is as it should be and I should not try to force this. I am re-thinking what I want to be when I grow up so I am in planning mode which, yes the irony of that last statement is not lost on me… trying to plan for something you cannot force the pace of! And the people in my life right now are the RIGHT people to be in my life and I am enjoying every experience that is being presented to me.

This all feels a bit Zen, but listening to life and allowing the universe to be the teacher is a good place to be, especially for me, as I am learning to let go and *get* that I actually don’t have to be in control!

Hmmmm so there is a force greater than me out there? Uh huh, there is. And that clarity… that ah-hah moment, has been huge. I love learning!